Wednesday, March 8, 2017

How To Help My #CRAZY {Mental Health, Suicide, Medications, OH MY!}

Be advised. 

Pouting and Whining is about commence. 

It has taken my doctor's office 5 days to get RX refills sent to the pharmacy. {These are the same 4 medications I have taken for the last couple years.}

That is 5 days without a sleeping pill, antidepressants, or a high blood pressure med. {I had some of the 4th med still left.}

As you can imagine, this brings my #crazy to its full 100%. 

Tonight at 8pm I pick up my medications. Two of the meds were not sent over as refills at all. They find a way to fill the one medication but the remaining med is missing.

So I now have 3 of the 4 I requested. Nothing I can do tonight, so I go home. I finish eating my dinner, and grab the meds to take tonight's doses. 

The antidepressant is now only half the doses it should be. I am not sure why someone cut my dose in half without discussing it with me. It seems like they don't want me getting back to #stable. They obviously don't care what I think.

So after days of waiting, hours of phone calls, multiple sleepless nights - my Dr's office still managed to fuck it up!

While it might not seem like it right now, I am at a functioning level of #crazy 90% of the year. OK, maybe 80% is a more accurate number. However, more often than not, I can handle a missed pill, a bad day, a bad week; and roll with the punches. 

What about those that aren't doing so well?

Sadly, my community has had 4 suicides in the last couple weeks. {One was a friend.} Plus there was a shooting incident on Friday that left 1 dead, and 1 injured. A suspect was arrested today. This happened at a rec center that is TWO blocks from our house. Yesterday I found out that a woman I work with died when her chemo didn't work and the cancer spread quickly. I can't take much more.

All of this is bringing up a lot of hurt emotions from a year ago.


People need to understand that without my medications, I would be one of those 4 suicides. The reason I don't look #CRAZY is because I take these medicines every day. If I can't sleep, it sets me up for failure tomorrow. If I get too low, everything seems hopeless. 

Then when something truly bad happens, like the death of a friend, or a trauma near your home; life falls apart. Subtract 5 days of medications... I am damn lucky that I only had a mini meltdown today. 

I am blessed to know what my triggers are, how to avoid them, tips and tricks for mood swings, and some really great ideas for self-care. I am also glad that I can step out of my own mental health issues and see how to help myself. It has taken me years to learn how my head and my heart work together to keep me stable. 

There are so many people that have no idea what kind of help they need, how to ask for help, or where to even start. Mental Health Issues need to be important to everyone. Plus everyone needs to understand that one person's #crazy is not the same as the next person. If you have a friend hurting, you need to be able to help them. If they need more than what you have in a First Aid kit, you need to know where to get them help.


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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 
Call 1-800-273-8255 (TALK)
Available 24 hours everyday
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Crisis Text Line
Twitter: @CrisisTextLine 
Free support by text, 24/7. Text TWT to 741741
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Veterans Crisis Line 
(800) 273-8255, Press 1 

Central Arizona Crisis Line 
(800) 631-1314 
(602) 222-9444 
TTY (800) 327-9254

Northern Arizona 
(877) 756-4090
(Apache, Coconino, Gila, Mohave, Navajo and Yavapai Counties) 

Southern Arizona 
(866) 495-6735
(Cochise, Graham, Greenlee, La Paz, Pima, Pinal, Santa Cruz and Yuma Counties)


Gila River and Ak-Chin Indian Communities 
(800) 259-3449
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