Wednesday, November 9, 2016

The Day After

This morning I woke up with dread in my heart. I was scared to pick up my phone and see today's headlines on the Google app. As I scrolled through the news and looked at Facebook, I felt such anxiety wash over me. I am nervous about the future of this country. I am nervous about the future of my family. 

The only thing that made me feel better this morning was prayer. I prayed as I pulled myself out of bed. I prayed in the shower. I prayed as I got dressed. I needed to find a way to talk to the boys before I dropped them off at school. As we pulled out of the driveway, I still didn't know what I was going to say to them. 

I started by telling them that the news said Trump had won the election. "Really?" is all they could say.  I told my boys that even though I wasn't happy with the results, there was not anything I could do today to change the election. I explained that I hoped I was wrong. That moms are always right (they agreed) but I wanted to be wrong. That we needed a president that would be good for our country.  One of the boys (nameless to protect himself) said someone should just beat up the president. I told them that it wasn't right to be a bully. That we need to be the better person and not act in that way.

All of sudden I came up with something profound. (Well at a 6 year old level.)

I asked the boys, "Who do we really need to listen to every day?"
Sam said "I don't know."
Jayson was quiet for a few seconds and then he shouted out "God!"

I was glad he said it without prompting. I told him that we need to look to God to lead our family. That we should listen to God on how to live each day.  That God wants us to love each other, be kind to each other, and to help one another. That when we are nervous or scared, we should pray to God. 

As we got closer to school I prayed for us. I thanked God for all the things we have, our home, our car, food, clothes, toys, and school. I prayed for him to calm our hearts and watch over us. To help us to have a good day. 

That is all I can do today. I can't change the election results. Letting my anxiety take over would not be helpful to my mental well-being. I have to take care of my boys and myself. Prayer has always helped to calm my fears. There will just be a few more prayers going forward.