Tuesday, November 15, 2016

I Did Chores! Despite Depression

So you might not think it is exciting but for me, this a huge accomplishment. When depression takes over my To Do List gets buried under the abundance of emotions, over eating, sleeping, insomnia, and running thoughts that fill my day. I am lucky if I can get some suitable clothing on, get out the door, and drive the boys to school. 

I thought I had pulled out of it as we approached Halloween. I forced myself to go have fun with the boys. It lasted for almost a week. The Presidential election just confused me and it sent my head spinning. I still can't make heads or tails of anything and that doesn't bode well for sleep.

The boys were gone for the 4 day weekend we had for Veteran's Day. That gave me 3 nights to myself. I had a Ladies Night that was a fundraiser for the very program that helped us start over in Flagstaff. I always feel that attending is required to give back to those that helped me. Saturday, I sold Norwex and some crafts I had made at a Xmas Bazaar. It was a good day. I earned enough money that I was able to buy some Christmas presents for the boys.

Sam & Jay spent the weekend with their grandparents. They were able to visit "Out of Africa" as a belated gift from their father. (He died the same week as the twins birthday.) Sadly, Sam had a 24 hour bug that started on Sunday. Jay had it Monday. I thought today was my turn but no, I have to go one step further and get the damn flu. I just want to sleep. I am freezing and want ALL THE BLANKETS.

Oddly enough I did two loads of laundry, took out the trash and washed all the dishes. I am not sure where that came from - but it was quite the accomplishment. 

The boys went to bed early. I planned to go to bed early but I got some homework done for one of my classes. At least it will be lights out before 12 midnight.

I wish I had been able to keep up with #NaBloPoMo like I promised. Depression tends to kick me in the ass when I think I have it beat.

Hopefully I can bring myself out of this before we start the rush of holidays and birthdays.