Thursday, September 27, 2012

Unglued but Blessed

I would love to write a post telling you all about the new book I am reading, Unglued, by Lysa TerKeurst. However, I haven't had a chance to start reading it. I was waiting until the first day of the OBS (online bible study for those of you not in the cool club) to crack it open, smell the nerdy-girl new book smell and read away.

Instead the last week has consisted of packing boxes, lining up some help to move them, unpacking at the new house, and now heading back to finish up and clean the old place. I have been UNGLUED for over a week now ! I have snapped at my kids, rolled my eyes at many people, nodded in conversations without really listening and wanted to just crawl into bed for a nap. 

However, last night on the conference call, I realized that I shouldn't complain about anything related to this situation. I was blessed that my housing voucher came through just weeks before I had to be out of my then current location. I was blessed to find a rental home in the same neighborhood with more space and a low rent. I was blessed that paperwork was completed so quickly. I was blessed that my utilities were turned on right away. I will continue to be blessed with our new home.

So, I won't beat myself up for not starting the book. I believe the first chapter is titled "Imperfect Progress", so I am right on track :) Baby Steps is what will make this rental a home. Baby Steps is what will allow me to facilitate a small group study with friends. 

Taken from Melisa Taylor, I'm Not a Freak-out Woman

Use this as a facebook status:

“I can face things that are out of my control and not act out of control.” LysaTerKeurst,Melissa Taylor’s Online Bible Studies,Week 1 #Unglued

or this as a tweet: 

“I can face things that are out of my control and not act out of control.”~ @LysaTerKeurst @MTBibleStudies Week 1

... and since no post is complete without pictures...

my new kitchen

playing outside

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Boogie Wipes, AGAIN

Last night as I stuffed more bags with samples and coupons, I realized how cool it is that I have been chosen to be a brand ambassador. Right now, I am a Saline Ambassador. It doesn't even feel like work :)

SALINE AMBASSADORS are confident and committed women/moms (possibly men/dads) who love sharing and discussing exciting new products or topics with others. 

I am super outgoing, friendly and loud. (Let's be honest here.) It is very easy for me to talk to strangers and offer them a sample. I love having parties when I can fit them into my schedule too. (It is a great excuse to eat cupcakes.) 

Today I got to bring sample packs of Boogie Wipes to MOPS. Each pack had a Kandoo Travel Size Flushable Wipes with a coupon; samples of both scents of Boogie Wipes that have tear off coupons, a coloring page a couple of crayons. Check out Save the Sleeve for more fun stuff for your kids.

At the meeting today, I even brought along a prize pack. For my local readers, if you received a sample pack from me this quarter (July, August, Septemeber 2012) and you completed the survey you can win a prize pack of your very own. Please contact me on facebook by September 25 to be entered in the drawing.

For my local readers, if you received a sample pack from me this quarter (July, August, Septemeber 2012) and you completed the survey you can win a prize pack of your very own.

AND here are some of the happy moms that received sample packs from me today. If you would like to learn more about Boogie Wipes - just leave a comment.



Edited to Add : I just found out they opened up recruitment to be a Saline Ambassador. If you are interested and are local and we have either spoken about Boogie Wipes or you received a packet with my name on it - please contact me for more info. Thanks.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Therapy Services: Speech, PT, OT and ME

Well, I have been trying to get a post out for the last couple days... I have started writing a couple times and either scrapped it or saved it as a draft. I am still having a hard time putting my thoughts into words. I guess I will start with how I am feeling. Tonight I am sad, discouraged and joyful. An odd combination - huh ? 

Sad: I had to give Jay a swat on the butt when he crawled out of bed for the 4th time tonight about ten after midnight. I know that I have a short temper at times with my boys being a single mom. I wish I could snap my fingers and have more patience. (Hell, I wish I could snap my way to 2 potty trained toddlers and a car to drive.) I know that praying for patience won't get me anything but more way to test the little patience I have - so I quit doing that a while ago. I know that the boys are only 2 and a half. I just wish bedtime wasn't such a torture session. 

Aren't they adorable when they are sleeping ?

Which leads me to... 

Discouraged: Routines are something that the boys need. I love to be super organized and plan things out but the daily routine is always a little lax. I have great months where we eat at the same time, and have a great bath, story, bed routine; but then there are days when we sleep until 7pm. Last year I had a schedule up on the wall and we stuck to it pretty well. This year I have a schedule drawn out in a spreadsheet but I can barely stick to it. I know that part of the problem was that Summer just took over. But that is really just an excuse. Yes, there was a lot of construction, and the monsoons and humidity made me even less motivated. But there was something more. Something I still can't quite place my finger on. I know I have been a little more down or depressed but no where near a horrible depression like I have had in the past. I just seem to lack focus lately. 

We have had a lot more scheduled this summer and that hasn't helped. (I say that as I can see my full calendar out of the corner of my eye. Oh, and that is the dry erase calendar to my right. There is also my google calendar on another tab in my browser which is synced to my phone, and then the paper version on the fridge. Then there is the excel spreadsheet of my daily finances (child support in, bills out) and a large year planner in my binder.) Wow - a whole paragraph to explain how anal retentive I can be about calendars. 

 Back on track - We have had to drop a couple of activities on our schedule that just couldn't conform to our needs. We skipped a bunch of other stuff that I had penciled in too. I kept meaning to get downtown for the kids' activities and we didn't make it once. We could have gone bowling 6 times a week for free and we went once all summer. There were play dates and free music classes that were all deleted off the calendar as well. The main thing I made sure to keep as a priority were therapy appointments. 

Joyful: The boys were approved for speech therapy at our local hospital. During visits with the SLP, she felt that Sam needed an evaluation with the Pediatric Physical Therapist. (Jay ended up only going a few times and hasn't had a problem catching up to his age level.) He was then approved for visits with her. She felt that an evaluation with the Occupational Therapist would be a good idea and approval for visits with her should come in this week. Sam still has his moments with grunting and refusing to use words but he is getting much better. All of this stems from his constant ear infections that he had August 2010 to November 2011. The boys had a third surgery at Thanksgiving 2011 and have done great since then. YEA !!! However, getting to these appointments have become a pain in the butt. (Which leads back to...) 

 Discouraged: I wish we had a little more freedom with getting around town and fitting stuff into our schedule. I know I am repeating a sob story I have uttered before, but I wish I could drive and had a decent car to get us around. (For those of you that don't know, I had my license suspended when a ticket hit the one year mark of non-payment.) The fines have gone up and I haven't been able to spare the money to pay it. I know I could send a few dollars here and a few dollars there but it would take 3 years or more to pay it off (probably more). Since everything else is a bigger priority (rent, utilities, diapers) it hasn't gotten even close to the top of the HAS TO BE PAID list. 

Sad, Discouraged, Joyful: Feeling this way has been helped with my own therapy appointments. I have been seeing a new counselor once a week for the last month or so. The company that oversees my depression and anxiety has had a lot of changes in the lat year. There have been countless employees that have come and gone and the caseloads have been juggled around more than bowling pins in a circus act. I was sad when my counselor in FLG left the company. Then I was discouraged while I bounced between 3 different counselors that just didn't fit or click. I have finally found some joy with being comfortable with my current counselor since I didn't think we would click at all when we first met. Writing on my blog and in a journal has really helped. It also didn't hurt that the counselor validated all the things I have done to keep my head above water the last few years. There was no judgement or rolling of the eyes. When I leave there each week I feel like somebody is sincerely proud of me for what I have accomplished in the last week. (Even if it was only cleaning the kitchen or finishing a craft project.)