The meeting was great. There are a lot of new moms and a ton of women that are pregnant. There are going to be a lot of new babies this year. I am excited to babysit and help out. After we got home and had lunch the boys finally went down to nap. I sat down to watch a movie that didn't include a Disney or Nickelodeon character. The movie was about a single mom that worked as a maid. She decided to start a business doing crime scene clean-up to make more money. "Sunshine Cleaning" was much different than I expected. The part that really got to me was about suicide. The character's mom had committed suicide when she was little. She felt she needed to take care of her little sister since their mom was gone. When they are called to clean up after a suicide for a client - she is happy for the money - but it made her sad too.
This is really hard to type because even though I have been really open about my life, a lot of the followers on my blog and my local friends don't know this secret. I have attempted suicide a few times in my past. The last attempt was years ago and I am doing much better now - so nobody needs to be concerned. I always thought it would be a better solution to the problems in life - but I have realized that it would only be the start to other problems for the people I love. In my head, I have always known this, in my heart; well that was harder to grasp. The people I have met in the last year have made me feel loved, cared for and supported. I still have times when I feel I am a burden to others - but those times are getting few are far between...
Between MOPS this morning and the movie this afternoon I really needed to
My MOPS group http://fcfmops.blogspot.com/
My church http://www.mtnviewchurch.org/Home.html
Sunshine Cleaning http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0862846/
AZ Suicide Prevention Coalition http://www.azspc.org/