Thursday, December 30, 2010

One of those days...

That was what today was...

Being a single mom can be lonely. I know that I have TWO adorable little boys in the next room, but some days I feel so alone. I sat in front of this computer all day today, well except for: feeding the boys, changing their diapers, cleaning up the floor under their high chairs, sorting the laundry, playing with them, cleaning up their toys, fixing bottles, watching the movie "Love Actually" and taking a nap.

I am thankful for my new friends, both online and in my little community. R came up and brought me fresh baked cookies warm from the oven and some fudge she had made today. I was really needing a friend and her timing was amazing. Online friends gave me some great advice for my blog and how to get started.

I still feel lonely though... To steal a line from a facebook friend "Why is it when you're around I want you gone, But when You're away I miss you". This really sums up my last relationship. It's sad because I look at pictures and I really think we were happy. At least, I thought I was. I have learned though, HAPPY isn't good enough. Happy is based on what is happening around you. I want JOY ! 

Well, I have read advice that tells me to post every day, and I have read advice that tells me to NOT post every day. I guess I will just do my own thing and write when I feel the need to say something, or get something off my chest. I hope I can use this blog as a journal of my feelings (my counselor friend would be proud). I am looking into doing a giveaway from my Gold Canyon Candles. If you are still reading this, look for a future post with instructions on how to enter.